Posted by cinderellaareus on November 14, 2018 at 08:34 AM | under: Wednesday

I was feeling sad in most part of the day yesterday. In a way, I'm upset that I'm still here while Partner will be moving on with his life na.

But then I came home. Found my niece playfully hiding just to 'scare' me. Then there's Mom who picked me up from the bus stop. The neighborhood's dogs, Pogi and Panget were there as a part of my welcoming committee. Ido was there too, and in these simple things, I know I'm beyond blessed.

The cage will give me money for the transfer.

Tita N was there to help me find a place to stay.

Brother will join so I think it wouldn't be so lonely.

Maybe I can finish the Simbang Gabi this year. My favorite chapel will just be a few minutes walk. Really, what's with all the drama?

Later tonight a wonderful human being who happens to be my best friend will visit our house together with the man she loves. By March, together with my entire family, I will witness their beautiful wedding. We'll be staying 3 days and 2 nights at the resort. For free. All of us. I'm so excited to swim and enjoy the place with my niece and everyone else.

Next week will be KCOn and I'll be staying in unit near the venue. Tiny, yes, but I have the place all for myself and that's a total upgrade compared to the hostel I stayed in last year. 

I feel like the Universe is spoiling me.


Gusto ko ng moon cactus, lithops, split rocks at astrophytum. Mejo mahal, but I think I've grown my skills in taking care of plants, hindi naman siguro masasayang ang salapi kung bibili ako ng mamahalin. But I'll be staying somewhere else soon. Hindi ko rin nga pala sila maalagaan.

Sira sira na ang mga sapatos ko and I could use buying new pairs of pants (kasi masisikip na lahat), pero mas gusto ko talagang bumili nalang ng cactus.

Claiming it. Ikayayaman ko to 

Can't You See

Posted by notwocanoccupy on November 13, 2018 at 03:28 PM

Some people on my Twitter timeline (oh yeah, I never got to fully deleting my account: I am addicted...) are horrified at that photo of alleged DepEd teachers picking up and then throwing starfish. And while I agree that they never should have done that, for some reason, the reactions of some people irked me. So, I'll rant.

These comments are coming from people who have relished and continue to relish the taste of meat, of cows and chickens and pigs who no doubt are more capable of feeling pain than starfish. An overwhelming amount of evidence is available to us, evidence that tells us what we already know: that animals are not unfeeling, unthinking objects that are not aware or cannot feel whatever cruelty we inflict on them. And these people see starfish being thrown and that's when they react? 

I'm sorry. It sounds like I'm speaking from a self-righteous point of view and, maybe I am. But come on. How can so many people ignore what it so plainly obvious? That the pig we eat is just as if not more intelligent than the dog we love, that the cow whose skin we use for clothing is just as socially complex than our cat? Certainly more than a starfish.

I'm starting to get tired of this hypocrisy. We go around pretending we're "animal lovers" or that we care about "God's creatures," when everytime we eat, we participate in the most massive and organized act of killing ever in history. When everytime we drink milk or eat dairy and cheese, we allow the repeated insemination of cows, from whom we take calves away and murder as veal, and take the milk for ourselves. And I'm getting tired of this bullshit that God "intended for us" to murder these animals. He asked us to be 'stewards of creation,' not destroyers.

And I'm so, so tired of people telling me that avoiding meat and dairy and fish is "only for the rich," while they continue to spend thousands of pesos on expensive cheeses and meats, while they buy leather, which is more expensive than fabrics that do not come from animals.

ANIMALS FEEL. Cows form complex social bonds and mother cows cry for days for their children, who we take away since they aren't allowed to have their mom's milk. Since we are drinking the milk that is for them. Pigs are more intelligent than most human 3 year-olds. Chickens can feel when we slit their throats. Fish suffocate when we take them out of the sea and they can feel each excruciating second that they're not in the water. WHAT THE FUCK. UGH.

I'm tired and I hate that I don't have a vegan support group to rant this to, that I'm only one person among seven billion, that...

I need a moment.


  • listening to :Saeglopur- Sigur Ros
  • Joy

    Posted by cinderellaareus on November 10, 2018 at 10:34 PM as a stickied post | under: Saturday

    I found this on the timeline of an fb friend who is a cancer survivor. I love it so much, I'm making this a sticky post.

    "We have the right to our joy -- sick or healthy; with children or no children; with partner or no partner. Seek it! Find it! And have a joyful life no matter how much you make or don't make."

    May we all find joy in every day of our lives. Goodnight. 

    fishy fish

    Posted by princess_bride on November 9, 2018 at 01:49 PM

    so someone gave us fresh fish. like a medium bucket full. and we didn't know what to do with it. hahaha. i mean i watch them clean em up in the market but never tried it at home. didn't even know if we have to remove all the scales or whatever. hassle! well, just thankful for the gift. at least there's something that we can cook quickly. now how to remove that fishy stench on my hand is another story. sigh.

    Baby and bear

    Posted by cinderellaareus on November 9, 2018 at 12:16 PM | under: Friday

    Friday came and my mind is Monday busy. I saw a vid in fb where a mother bear and a baby bear were climbing up a snowy mountain. The mother bear already reached the top, but the baby bear kept falling and falling, I thought he won't be able to make it. But after climbing and sliding back down so many times, the baby bear eventually managed to reach the top. The caption says something like "never give up," but I think there's more to it than that.

    The mountain was stiff and there was cliff below. I don't think the baby bear kept climbing up because of a never-give-up attitude. He just didn't have much choice.

    You know what, I just found a mountain. May the Universe bless me.


    A lot of things happening. I need to squeeze a meetup with the customer tomorrow kasi nakakahiya na. Still, I'm kinda happy because I know that busy is good.

    Got the instructions from the owner of the place I'd be staying in for 5 days, 2 weeks from now. I'm glad that we don't have to meet, but I still hope things go on smoothly by then.

    Bff scheduled meeting up with my parents on the 14th since they'll be ninong and ninang in her wedding. She wants me to be there by then so it's gotta be dinner time. Said she'll be bringing my dress. I told her to buy 1 size smaller than my size. I didn't lose a single pound. What was I thinking?

    Things will change in just a little more than a week from now. More changes are coming by 2019. Things are changing except me. Or am I not?


    I need this mountain. Go, Baby Bear.

    everything will be okay :)

    Posted by dabahnidanda on November 7, 2018 at 08:12 PM

    Sometimes the world throws us into places we aren't prepared to be

    like unplanned decisions






    all those things that makes us sad simply because we are not prepared to face them

    We always forget that everything is planned

    everything happens for a reason

    and sometimes, these reasons, are the ones we don't understand

    because they are not the ones we have been expecting for us

    the truth is, God places us where we are supposed to bloom to our full potential

    and although it is really hard to comprehend, we face these challenges in life to mold us to become better people

    so to you out there who is struggling and feeling so down, you are not alone.

    Every single day, each of us faces our own share of burdens - never let these things weigh you down

    You are never alone.

    God is with you

    and in time, everything will be okay


    Posted by chronicwind on November 6, 2018 at 09:07 AM

    Huyy bojack ano na??? Every episode nalang ba papaiyakin mo ko???

    Because im bawling again, aga aga

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